I am soo sad

I can't handle this.

My first born informed me that he got called back for a 2nd interview at the gym he applied to in Chicago. I know that he will never be able to afford to live on Long Island. I know he has to get out of my dad's house. But the thought of him being so far away is killing me. I want so much for him to be happy and be able to have a live and start a family, but I don't want him anywhere but here. Of course I will not let him know that. I will try to be brave and let whatever happens happen, but I don't think I have to like it and I think I can still cry while I am all by myself - my darling husband would just laugh at me. THIS SUCKS!!!! How do parents survive something like this. It's the pits. I know its for the best, and I know that everything happens for a reason, I also know that I don't have to like it one little bit!!

Things that have me confused

I hate watching the news or reading the newspaper - the news disgusts me. Some examples...

1. A man here on Long Island wanted to get rid of his viscous pit bull - first of all buddy, its your fault he is viscous, my sons pit bull is a bug mush - So the louse piece of shit walks his dog into the woods, ties him to a tree, pours gas on him and light him on fire - then walks away as the dog is yelping. I am sorry, but he should be tied up and lit on fire too. Now they are advertising on the local news that this guy had another dog that was taken away and needs to be adopted. Who wants to adopt a dog that lived with a freak like that - heaven only knows what was done to this dog
2. Michael Vick - now I am not saying he is guilty or he is not but... the fact that there are people in this world who would let someone elses dog attack and possibly kill your dog - What the fuck is that about?? Again I look at my sons dog and think, if another dog came after him, I would kick the shit out of it. How can you do that to a living creature??
3. Barry Bonds - should we be celebrating how great the man is doing if he was indeed taking steroids - what does that say to our children? I am sure there are athletes out there who are a better role model.
4. Lindsay Lohan - speaking of poor role models. Now I have three girls who of course like her. The kids has been drinking and driving and partying for the past how many years. Now she is finally 21. Will she really get jail time for the crap she has done - yeah, maybe a whole month like her friend Paris

So, I guess that will conclude my rants for the day. I mean I could go on about rude drivers, but that is for another day!!!

Could yesterday have been any worse???

I walk into the lunch room and Baby D's friend comes up and says Baby D isn't felling well. Well, Maybe she just needs to eat. We get back from lunch, I am working with the little boy who has a one on one - (she was out to lunch) Baby D comes into my class in tears. She doesn't feel well. I calm her down and tell her to go to the nurse. I go down to check on her at she isn't feeling good so the nurse gets her some meds - low grade fever, OK, I will call DH. Go back to the room (it is like 12:20) to get my phone to call dh to come get her, there is a message from DS from 9 am - go take care of the old man - My daddy. There is also a voice mail from my brother - daddy is at the Emergency room waiting for x-rays (he fell down Friday and Sunday nights) Call dh, he can' t come get her he is on the North Fork - great!! Call my brother back - they are leaving the hospital - nothing is broken, daddy has pain killers, but really can't drink because he will be knocked on his ass. Go back to the nurse and see if Baby D can stick it out - she lays down again. Go back to my class. It is time for me to go to lunch!! Go back to the nurse - baby is gone, but the nephew is there in a lot of pain. Hit his collar bone, and can't move his arm - the nurse is going to call SIL. Have lunch go back to check on the nephew - he is going home with my in laws - was going to send the baby home, but the nurse says they will be in the emergency room so she may as well stay in school. Leave school have to take BK to dance with two friends - dh decides he is going to BJ's - great - I have 5 kids and two broken seat belts - whatever - Call the dr. Get an apt for baby at 7:20 - Get the girls to dance. Come home, dh is saying he has to go someplace. Southampton, great, take the baby to the dr for me and I will take AL to Karate - nope - the time frame doesn't work for him - Thanks for the help jack_ _ _ Go back to dance to get the girls - one of them has to wait for a costume fitting. Meantime the baby just wants to lay down someplace. Finally get out of there, drop the other two girls off. It is 20 to 7 - Maybe enough time to get BK dinner and get to the Dr. Dh pulls up and takes BK - says she has to go with him - the poor kid is hungry. Take DG to the Dr. It is viral, it has to run it's course, blah. blah, blah, blah,blah. Go get Tylenol put the baby to bed get ds's girlfriend to baby sit. Can't tll you how grateful I am for that. Go right to bed. Wake up this morning 3:30 - OK, ready to start a new day!!! Driving to the gym - barely missed 3 freakin deer crossing the road. God give me strength.

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I am so done

Done with my kids not listening. Done with being aggravated about my weight. Done with being the one to worry where the money to pay the bills is coming from. Done with yelling every morning, while my husband sits down eats his breakfast and reads the paper. But alas, it isn't just my kids that don't listen to me - the kids in school aren't listening either. I haven't been on the computer too much - didn't feel like it. Yesterday was my 13th wedding anniversary and my husband didn't even have a card for me in the morning. It's not like he didn't know it was coming. I got his present in March!!! Was it too much to expect him to be prepared. It's not even like I wanted a present. The present I got his was good for both of us. But anyway.... Here is to hoping that tomorrow will be a better day...

My little boy had his first body building show on April 14th. I am so proud of him. He worked really hard to get where he was. Unfortunately for him some people chose not to work so hard and didn't go the natural way that he did. The first thing we did was take him out for a meal. He enjoyed it.

On a lighter note - my brother SIL and I took the 5 kids to the city to see Mary Poppins last weekend. It was a lot of fun. Couldn't find a lot of people to sit with us on the train ride in, but that was OK. They entertained quite a few people on the way home LOL!! I hope the didn't want to sleep on the train. HA HA !!

So, what is next on our to do list - Mothers Day!! Daddy's first without my mom. 25 people coming for dinner - isn't it mothers day???? My SIL and I decided to sit around and let the men do the work!!! We will see if that works!

OK, so I have rambled enough, hopefully my next post will be a little more exciting

Some people have no brains!!

So, I have drop off duty at the school. The parents drive their little sweeties to school and drop them off at the back door. I stand there - regardless of the weather - which has sucked big time lately - and make sure no one gets hurt. So today the other teacher I am with and I are standing there freezing our asses off - yeah, you would think one parent that gives you that sympathetic look, would drop off a freakin cup of tea - but no!!! So anyway, kids get dropped off with their projects, cupcakes - which they don't even share with us - and everything I guess they need for the day - today a dad drops off his son with two guns - Oh yeah, you read that right! Two guns!!!! Rifles even !! I look at Miss G and ask WTF????? They are for the third grade play. Ummm, a wise choice would be for dad to bring them to the office not drop them off for an 8 year old to walk through the building with. So, she grabs them and takes them to the office where the teacher just happens to be - who was expecting little guns - not two fucking rifles. The kid tells Miss G that they are toys, they were his dads. Anyone around my age will know how real to toy guns used to look. In my opinion dad really didn't think that one through!!! (Mind you this was one of the dads who coached Ashies Little League!! )

I have made a decision!!!

So, I have decided I have too many kids!! Don't ge me wrong, I love them all, but HOLY CRAP what was I thinking. I am exhausted at the end of each day, and I don't even do anything!!! Here is my week this week:
M - A B & D school till 3:30,
3:30 - 5 - A & B brownies
6 - 7:45 - A Karate

T - A B & D School till 3:30
5:00 - family coming over because it would have been my parents 47th anniversary
5:30 - 6 D - Karate
6 - 6:45 B Karate

W - School till 3:30
4:45 - 6 - B dance - my week to drive
5 - Weigh In
6 - A - Karate

T - school
5-5:45 D dance - she has to miss karate which really ticks her off
6 - B - karate

F - school
Yay - manicure for me at 4!!!

S - 11:30 - 12 - A - karate
12:15 - 12:45 D - Dance
3: - 4:30 - A & B birthday party

Sun - 11 - 12:15 A B & D religion

Repeat each week pretty much the same except the time of the party and the children going changes!!!!

I guess I shouldn't comoplain. I never got to do all these things and I think it is making them better people. (yup, I keep telling myself that but I have yet to believe it)

Rude Smokers

I understand that smoking is an addiction. I also understand that people have to smoke. But what I don't understand is why 15 people have to get together right outside the door of a restaurant and smoke together. It is bad enough when you have to walk past one of them and breathe their smoke, but a whole group of men - I kid you not at least 15 - smoking at one shot is just disgusting!!!

Thank you , I am done!!